Crystal's Journal
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April 03, 2010
pain and more pain
Well they took me off the lupron and decided to try the provera.....i have never been in so much pain. They told me that it may not be working and that there is nothing they can do to reverse it. it hurts so bad, and they can't get me in til the 19th.....So their only idea is when its unbearable to go to the ER....I think it was stupid to change the shot when the first one was great and i felt great all the time
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April 03, 2010
The baby
Well the baby was born and she decided to keep her...I was hurt and depressed but its okay now.. I would much rather see someone raise their own child for me to have one. A child needs a mother even if it isn't the one who carried them..I am finally getting back on my feet and so to a point, I am thankful that it didn't work out after all....I wish her all the luck in the world
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January 11, 2010
I hate this back and forth
One day the doctors wanna do surgery and then they don't...They can't keep me on the lupron but they say I can't go without it..Why not do the surgery??? Oh well, baby is healthy and 28 weeks along and my last day of class is Thursday..Got a great extern at a very high powered clinic and get to start the 19th
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August 19, 2009
Surgery Once Again
Well I go back to the doctor September 21st...They said we need to do surgery again. They are taking the only ovary I have left and remove the adhesions. They also said that I have 2 pockets were my cervix use to be......? It is either endo again or internal bleeding pockets....I am so scared..
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February 09, 2009
My life with endo
I recently was hired as a manager in trainig making good money. I realized after I said yes to the job, I can't do it........... I hurt everyday. I have hired an attourney to apply for SSI benefits. I am unable to have anymore surgery becasue of the adhesions. I just want my husband to see me as a normal wife should be... I know it dosen't bother him but it doses me. What do I do? I feel like an old woman! I feel all alone with no one listening to me screaming on the inside.